...I read a bedtime story to Katelyn?
...Or washed Emily's hair for her?
...Or picked Lauren up in my arms and carried her somewhere?
...Or took Hannah for a walk in a stroller?
...Or supported Olivia's neck and head when I held her?
Some things we purposefully put a stop to. Like changing diapers, for example. As Hannah approached her third birthday, I knew the last one was getting closer. The last time I changed Hannah's diaper, I was well aware (and happy to decide) that it was the last time I would do that for her.
But I don't recall ever making a conscious decision, for example, to stop making a bedtime story part of my daily routine with Katelyn. Somehow, though, it happened. And now, it's been so long, I don't even remember when or why.
Was it because she preferred to read to herself? Was it because she grew too big, and I didn't fit comfortably next to her on her bed? Was it because I was too busy tucking in the others, after reading them their stories?
Or, did I stop in the middle of a move, when I was too busy and overwhelmed with packing and upacking, placing and rearranging, canceling and registering, selling and buying, choosing and second-guessing?
When kids are young, they go through a lot of growth and changes in 8 months. That's how long it has been since we started the whole process of this move.
8 weeks from now, the moving part of this process will be over. I can't wait. I would really like to get back to "normal life" (if that really exists)...
Before another daughter stops needing a bedtime story.
5 comments:
how sad rebecca..however..i canNOT wait until ava decides to stop using diapers! i hope normal life comes bac to you too..but what is normal life? there's no such thing as that! =)
Life does tend to get away from us, doesn't it? I was just reading this morning about how C.S. Lewis speaks of time (or the passing of it) as something that we as humans are never really used to, which means we were meant for eternity.
I like that perspective.
You just want a place you can call home!! It is coming my friend. Real soon! I am going to guess that it stopped when Katelyn could read to herself. Zachary is almost there. But he still likes a kiss and prayers before he is down for the night.
I love the way you write. You word so beautifully all the things that mothers feel.
I agree with Amy. Your posts are always great. I think our kids grow up way too fast. I wish there was a way to stop time...
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